Welcome to my life of .The horrifying moment when you're looking for an adult but then you realize that you're an adult. So, you look for an older adult, someone successfully adulting. An adultier adult.
When did I become the grown up. That horrifying moment when you're looking for an adult, but you realize you are an adult. So you look around for an older adult. An adultier adult. Someone better at adulting than you.