A strong happy woman who was so full of life, possibilities, enthusiasm, vitality. Sucked dry for 30 years. You don't just pick yourself up and move on after this. The man you thought you married is dead - he never existed - It feels
Every time I was momentarily freed it was exhilarating. Then the fear and doubt he'd worked so hard to instill would rush in. Then I'd find myself back together with him and wondering how it was all happening again.
The time just before we fully recover is the trickiest time for us, because it's the time when we still feel the emotional pull, and it's the time when we need gentle but firm parenting from ourselves to bring us back to the reality of the situation.