the fear of getting emotionally attached . and it still hurts . I want to feel but it hurts, I fear the most amazing happiness, feeling it and then when I have to let it go, I don't want to pain like that
i risked it. i went against the herd. when everyone was doing one thing, i did the other. because it was average, it was normal, it was comfortable to do what they were doing. well, growing up around it my whole life.