The ego says "I shouldn't have to suffer" and that thought makes you suffer so much. It is a distortion of the Truth, which is always paradoxical. The Truth is that you have to say yes to suffering before you can transcend it .
Antisocial means having no remorse for committing murder so I hope you are not antisocial! Look up antisocial personality disorder!) it's a big difference people who don't like socializing are introverted NOT antisocial!