You can't compete when you dont compare. And truthfully.I feel sorry for you. Living in my shadow, knowing that no matter how hard you try you will never ever come close to comparing to me! It must be very defeating. That's just your reality.
An insecure woman seeks constant reassurance that she is beautiful, valued and loved. This is why you find insecure people to be such attention seekers. They are looking for validation that they are acceptable as they are. BE CONFIDENT!